Nathaniel T. Hughes

I'll lead our ship across vast cosmos of unknown you, my tigress, supporting me your tigress-ness desirously clinging to my Viking-ry: A certitude to enter godly domains strength to conquer, to merge two burning flames, new destinies unfolding as we pass over dreamy ecstatic waves, Able to traverse anything with our passionatetly inspiring embrace

Through empty space it passes, trees starkly naked in it's eternal majesty; it's reflected light from another time, new beginnings burning ancient wisdom, hardened memories reaching out to departing clouds; I'm suddenly grounded in this place of silently sad music, a calm, poised energy settling in as I surrender to the greatness of all that is.

let's tighten the space in openness like rays of sun let future become present like melting drops of ice transform past into fluid new like these burning colors these dancing leaves like a heart wildly calm burning furiously for home let's come home again to solid love

There's illusion in all we do unintended expectations a biting pretext of a future trying to be more clear: I can not see you there, and that's okay; abstracted notions of love are something we'll keep leaving behind and the more unclear it becomes, the more we embrace a predetermined context that will hold us dearly close - two slices of eternity merging at the crossroads of infinite love; And we're getting closer to that point, a point that carries on a point that births the rest of time And I'll let you go Over and over until we're finally at that point of truly unconditioned love **** I'm uprooting you from my mind, all those mistaken connections found in your arms all those frenzied romantic moments dulled by the wayside the magic of a transcended intimacy a chemical sensation of timeless love a kind of trap a kind of blind to empty holes and guarded lies and some of the roots go so deep, I'm still yanking at the mistak

Twilight becomes daylight, from damp fields - fog of never here nor there, ghostly future impressions, spiderwebs holding onto hopeful promises of distant conversations; It's shimmering expectation, a romanticized past that beats on as we drive down the side of winding roads: To see there is nothing to see; to expect there is nothing to expect - like the wet, mirrored leaves, love is just a reflection letting go in all directions

It's hard to know when to leave when to break free from the sensualizing ropes that pull us so close we never want to let go like demigods, our glistening blindfolds of pleasure have been set up lost in the space that blurs the lines of where we really are and how expansive this has all become the blissful opening of heart chakras that will never come undone together we'll stand strong find a place in between the smiling sun and winking comforts of the tempting stars it's all just borrowed time and when we realize it's the thread of who we really are, we'll walk that fine line guided only by our hearts, certain our love will evolve

And I'll drift in like faint fires of eternity burning in us for so long like an alluring primordial glow like karmic winds igniting an ever expansive romance we've always known There my eyes will shimmer inside yours And look back out with a new intrepid hope we'll re-explore the depths of each other, embraced by the scared depths of the world I'll be there by the pond reflecting the willow tree The wordless rock of reason Emboldened by your enchanting charms

All of a sudden I see you in abstracted peripherals of my future, a strange prescriptive growing from these alluring wonderings: whatever it is, we've always been it, anchored in each other's arms, singing scared notes of our past lives; It's so comforting to find you here - A magnetized spiral attraction where we'll always be.

I loved you too much to love you in the mellow way you needed to be loved; I held on too tight to be able to see the hollow point of your heart, gasping for space, bending from the excessive weight I instilled in simple things; And I depended on you too much for the cute, crazed thai girl that you are, and forgot to be  your splendid, carefree soldier,  your messai of new and exciting things: If only I could have loved you like you said: “Not TOOOO much! but for a very long time.”