Time isn't Linear

Here we are where we'd never thought we'd be,
here where it doesn't feel like much a place to start from because we've already come so far,
here sadly it's where we are now and yes I feel my life is completely different,
here I've never felt such surreal, unbelievable universal change that I can't quite turn around.
It reverberates right to the core of my soul,
to the eternity that we always talked about,
to the edges of the opportunities that we never quite got to and back to the unfounded beginnings that never quite got underway.

Somehow this has to be a beginning,
somehow there is a sad and hopeful opportunity in that.

And then those new beginnings have to find the thread that lends itself to the deepest desire to slowly mend this in an open unrefined way.
And that could mean I'll have to let go of it being in this life.
So I trust in trust as I trust in the universe as a way to refeed the trust you've lost in me.
It's scary for me and probably scary in the proposition that we end up back together at some point. But because you do really know who I am, I hope you see the real me shining back through.
And again that's hope for hope
and it's not saying much more than our dried tears on the windy ground.